“You drove yourself so hard you sought chemical ways to maintain that level of performance,” Fornelli said.

“I wish I could take the clock back,” Adhami said.

Fornelli said Adhami has so much of his life yet to lead and so many people who care about him.

“You’re a bright man,” Fornelli said. “You have such a bright future.”

Adhami said he wanted to live up to those expectations.

“I want to get back to my old ways when I can get up, go to work and come back to my wife,” Adhami said.